This week has been very strange and it has made me think and deal with a lot of issues I have tried to hold back on. I got into a huge argument with my Dad and finally told him everything I needed to say. I love him with all my heart, but I feel at times when I needed him he wasn't there. Of course we cannot see eye to eye on issues and maybe this is due to the different cultures we both were subjected to while growing up. He grew up in India where he was the son that sacrificed his own education and dreams to work and support his family. He believes that everyone should do have that same self-sacrificing personality. However, I believe one should help themseleves first, and then they can truley help others around them. Anyways...long story short we aren't talking , but I am glad I got out a lot of issues.

I have finally come to the realization that he is never going to come back, and that I am waisting my time hoping for some sort of miracle. Why should I want to be with someone who doesn't want me anymore? I don't. I hate when he uses lines like " I want to be with you but i can't". If you really wanted to be with someone you would be with them. That line only applies if there is a sudden war, and you have no means of finding eachother. Then again you can be with them in your heart, vice versa.  "I love you" and " I still miss you" doesn't make sense to me anymore.

*sigh*

"The world is a vampire"